Tuesday, March 29, 2005

This 15 weeks of projects has caused me to realised and understand more things about the people I work with and the people in my class.
Eveyone has its own strenght and weakness, the key is that i never blame others for what they have or have not done but to let them realise what went wrong(this applies to myself also) and we work as a team to solve the problem. Easier said than done but this is the only way to get sweetness in the end;]rite.

Am touched guys(my grp members)
They have blessed me with a chocolate of aknowledgement, thanking me for all i have done for the team. Thanks guys, i love the Meji chocolate.hehe

Japanese Last paper
Hiaz...sadly was being pulled to the dark side today by my classmate to join them as they are planning to "help each other" during the exam for the jap paper...I knew that somehow if i dun join them, i will fail this paper to the lowest marks so... i have to thank JS and TinTin for their help and confese my sin(which i did during lunch).

A word for those who got hurt in this 15 weeks of pain and hardship of doing the project.
I know we all try the best to produce the greatest project and got burned during this process but assure this whole process is going or maybe already made us all stronger in many ways so, can i say that this is a exprience that has taught us all something. Be glad that all of us pulled through yar;]
God Bless Us ALL.
Amen.

Friday, March 11, 2005

You...Me....People...Humans...

Ladies and Gentlemen.
My younger brother's friend(Blehiem) has left this world last night while most of us is sleeping. Have you ever thought that smtimes u have a fight or an arguement with your firends or even parents but once thier are gone they are GONE. So with this testimoni lets understand the fact that humans lifes are weak and yet percious so look at the people around you try to make effort to have every breath and time with time...Dun Give up because Living Is A Greater Fight.

My Mum, I love my mum because i think she is the world's most greatest woman I ever seen. Single handed rise up three son by herself and still working till this day for the family and she is 53 this year. Alone for 19years is extreamly hard for anyone to bear so no matter how hard or difficult my life is now i always come to a conclusion that it is nothing compared to what my mum did!

okok...too much emtional things... well just got my Java practical test marks and got 80/100. Am over joyed and contented with my marks no matter what my other classmates did because i really improved a little.YES
Thank You Lord.
Bless us all amen.



Wednesday, March 09, 2005

My Heart...
Just when I was about to set my mind that the girl in my life is no where near yet and thinking only to have a girl friend after my NS days, you shead tears... my Heart melt again and it kind of hurt me to see you like this. It just makes me want to give you a hug and say:"its alright anata(jap word)am hear!"don't cry...and just let you cry on my shoulders as long as u like...
This is what i wanted to do but....i can't because i have to respect the fact that you already have a boyfriend..haiz... I care about you and just want to make you smile, because you are special to me.

Right now, I can only wear a shinning armor and once again be your knight,protecting you the best way i can and thats to care or u....

However I think i need to clear my mind and need to know where i stand in your heart because its just so hard and sometimes painful knowing that what i can do for you is always so limited and am so unclear of myself sometimes. Do really have no feelings for me? Just say it to my face, dun wry how i will react because i can understand and I can take it de;]This is just for my own, for a man like me I just need to know.

The first rejection was not clear enough i guess,hahahaha well...I guess i will meet the one in God's timing ya:)...

To those wondering who this person whom i protect pls do not bother to guess or make any assumption because u are wrong and i won't say who this person is....I guess this is only meant for her to know pa;]

God Bless Us all
Amen



Sunday, March 06, 2005

Its an OK day la...
Went to church fo service and it was great and got the the message that pastor was trying to convey.

These pass few days alot of things has happened...like my younger brother's close friend (blenhiem) friend since pri sch. He got some sort of damage in the brain(suddenly) and went through numbers of operation and friday, after midnight his heart STOPPED TWICE and there was not enough oxygen in the brain and was decleared brain dead....haiz...BUT just yesterday morning, a MIRACEL by God has stir the blood in him and his barin and heart was able to function well again. God Bless and the most touching part was that he cried when his parent hold his hand my called him. Now he is resting waiting for abt 1 or 2 weeks b4 his next operation.

Life is so Weak but Precious, so lets be happy and enjoy the compaion of the people around us because you never know when will they go....

God bless us all;} Amen



Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Projects....

Projects and projects and still project....it seems never ending...haiz... being so stress lately that my energy level is always so low.

I find it so strange, i seems to know alot of people who has a tough life. My manager in Suki Shushi, when she was 14 she has to work just to support herself because her family is all messed up and she does all the things in the house, ended up that her studies were neglected and went to ITE but still she had her infinite problems and finally found a husband at her work place( i think...) This person has gone though so much in life and suffered dearly for something that she has not done but in exchange she did learned alot and mutured faster but at the same time pain....

I too suffer similar things but am much more fortunate than her compared to her story... In life we faces challenges that brings us down but this is why we as humans has to become stronger and face the problems so that we may grow not only the outside but more importantly the inside....at least this what i think...

God Bless Us All;]



Friday, February 25, 2005

Today i have to go early for alumni meeting and left estrella an jun hao behind to do ASP Project(am sorry that i did that).... i feel like an idot! It is so obvious that my project is more important than alumni meeting because this comcearns about my future and the fact that I dun really have much time for myself because of work, study and even sacrific my Tennis time......

What is THIS.....this feeling that keeps messing with me....Alumni is just my way to stay contact with my secondary friends and help if ONLY I AM FREE! but am doing the oposite! I followed my feelings for the school and help out as much as I can(infact smtime too overloading) but ended up that the school is eating my own personal life....

Am I FOOL....FREAKING FOOL who gave so much of my years to my seconday sch and even if i got an NYAA Gold award, SO WHAT! Deep inside i don't enjoy the whole process of geting it.....You might say that am selfish, thinking about myself all the time but how can i be happy when I do things only for others, taking up so much responsiblity to commit and get almost everything but happiness....

After 2moro, which i have to go to my sec sch for alumni, am not goona miss my tennis trainning anymore for such things again....because I am a human too.... i need happiness and make the choice which i believe anyone would do for their best intrest... God bless me and please guild along your way Amen.



Thursday, February 24, 2005


This is my my best pic..hehe 





Today is a very dry day,tried to learn as much math as possible however fell to sleep a few times... and got my ASP results and concluded that I am not that academicallY inclined... haiz... but will still try my best to score well in this upcoming java prac test...

The Arts... often wondered y am I in the course of IT since i like to draw this much and wanted to sell my ideas instead of my life to work in future, however it maybe just a starting point for me to learn the hardway...God bless me and please show me the way.

Just watched "White Noise", storyline got no end and no beginnings but it the sound effects was great..hmmm....6/10 la if u ask me.